Caderno de quotes de livros: I Thought it Was Just Me (But it Isn’t)

Eu falei sobre a Dra. Brené Brown pela primeira vez lá em 2016 (aqui e aqui), mas só agora peguei um livro dela para ler: “I Thought it Was Just Me (But it Isn’t) – Making the Journey from ‘What Will People Think?’ to ‘I Am Enough’”.

Se você tem preconceito contra livros de auto-ajuda – como eu confesso que eu tinha -, eu altamente recomendo ler este. Eu sempre achei que livros de auto-ajuda eram baseados em achismo, mas não os da Dra. Brené Brown. “I Thought it Was Just Me (But it Isn’t)” é baseado em sete anos de pesquisa e centenas de entrevistas, e trata da sociedade moderna tanto quanto das nossas batalhas individuais diárias.

Algumas (muitas) passagens para o meu caderno de quotes de livros:

“Shame and self-esteem are very different issues. We feel shame. We think self-esteem. Out self-esteem is based on how we see ourselves – our strengths and limitations – over time. It is how and what we think of ourselves. Shame is an emotion. It is how we feel when we have certain experiences. When we are in shame, we don’t see the big picture; we don’t accurately think about out strengths and limitations. We just feel alone, exposed and deeply flawed. My friend and colleague Marian Mankin described the difference between shame and self-esteem this way: ‘When I think about my self-esteem, I think about who I am in relation to who I want to be, where I come from, what I’ve overcome, and what I’ve accomplished. When I feel shame, I’m taken back to this place of smallness where I lose that sense of context. I’m returned to a small place – I can’t see everything else. It’s just a small, lonely place.” (p. xxii)

“Our culture teaches us about shame – it dictates what is acceptable and what is not. We weren’t born craving perfect bodies. We weren’t born afraid to tell our stories. We weren’t born with a fear of getting too old to feel valuable. We weren’t born with a Pottery Barn catalog in one hand and heartbreaking debt in the other. Shame comes from outside of us – from the messages and expectations of our culture. What comes from the inside of us is a very human need to belong, to relate.

We are wired for connection. It’s in our biology. As infants, our need for connection is about survival. As we grow older, connection means thriving – emotionally, physically, spiritually and intellectually. Connection is critical because we all have the basic need to feel accepted and to believe that we belong and are valued for who we are.

Shame unravels our connection to others. In fact, I often refer to shame as the fear of disconnection – the fear of being perceived as flawed and unworthy of acceptance or belonging. Shame keeps us from telling our own stories and prevents us from listening to others tell their stories. We silence our voices and keep our secrets out of the fear of disconnection. When we hear others talk about their shame, we often blame them as a way to protect ourselves from feeling uncomfortable. Hearing someone talk about a shaming experience can sometimes be as painful as actually experiencing it for ourselves.” (p. xxiv-xxv)

“Dr. Shelley Uram, a Harvard-trained psychiatrist, is currently the consulting psychiatrist at The Meadows, a trauma and addiction treatment facility. In her work, Dr. Uram explains that most of us think of traumatic events as big events (like car wrecks and disasters). But Dr. Uram points out that we tend not to recognize the small, quiet traumas that often trigger the same brain-survival reaction. After studying Dr. Uram’s work, I believe it’s possible that many of our early shame experiences, especially with parents and caregivers, were stored in our brains as traumas. This is why we often have such painful bodily reactions when we feel criticized, ridiculed, rejected and shamed. Dr. Uram explains that the brain does not differentiate between overt or big traumas and covert or small, quiet trauma – it just registers the event as ‘a threat that we can’t control.’

In her work on ‘remembering the wound’ versus ’becoming the wound,’ Dr. Uram explains that most of the time when we recall a memory, we are conscious that we are in the present, recalling something from the past. However, when we experience something in the present that triggers an old trauma memory, we reexperience the sense of the original trauma. So, rather than remembering the wound, we become the wound. This makes sense when we think of how we are often returned to a place of smallness and helplessness when we fell shame.” (p. 89)

“Magazines make money by selling advertising space, not subscriptions. The goal is to have us look at the woman on the cover, feel bad and then buy all the lotions and potions advertised in the magazine. If we buy a lot of products, the cosmetic companies buy more advertising space in the magazine and so on…” (p. 103)

“Knowledge is power and power is never diminished by sharing it – it is only increased.” (p. 112)

“’The most difficult thing about people finding out I’m a lesbian is the assumptions they make. People automatically assume they know everything about me. Once they know you’re gay, people think they can fill in the blanks for the rest of your life. They assume you’ve probably been abused by a man at some point in your life; they assume you hate men; they assume you’re masculine and like sports; they expect you to act, dress, vote and spend money a certain way. Most people outside the gay and lesbian community don’t understand that there is as much diversity in our community as there is in the straight community. You never hear people saying, ‘Oh, you’re straight, say no more – I know everything about you.’ Sexual orientation doesn’t dictate your politics, your religion, your beliefs, your values, what you like and who you are. I don’t assume to know you when I find out you’re straight. Don’t assume to know me when you find out I’m a lesbian.’” (p. 220)

“There are times when our feelings, thoughts and actions relate directly to our past or current struggles. But there are certainly times when they don’t. the problem arises because, at some point, mos of us begin to believe the expectations about who we’re supposed to be, what we’re supposed to look like, what we’re supposed to do, how much we’re supposed to be and how little we’re supposed to be.” (p. 228)

“’People who are guilt-prone are likely to focus on the behavior in question. For example, a guilt-prone person who misses a day of work after a night of heavy drinking is likely to think, ‘If I keep missing work, I could lose my job.’ In contrast a person who is shame-prone is much more likely to focus on what they view as a defective self (‘I’m a complete failure because I keep missing work’). As you can imagine, it is much easier to change or fix any given behavior than it is to fix a defective self. So, as a result, the guilt-prone person in this situation will try to figure out what they can do differently. For instance, they might strategize about how it would be better not to drink on nights when they have to work the next day, or how it would be better not to drink to the point where they can’t function effectively the next day. The shame-prone person, because he is overwhelmed by the emotion resulting from the realization that he is bad (defective, unworthy, etc.), can’t problem-solve, and therefore can’t make the same types of plans for how to do things differently (and hopefully better) the next time he finds himself in a similar situation. In essence, the shame-prone person gets stuck in the emotion, whereas the guilt-prone person is able to move on.’” (p. 257)

“We cannot change and grow when we are in shame and we can’t use shame to change ourselves or others.” (p. 265)

“It’s important to understand that parents also have the power to teach and model fear, blame and disconnection. Sometimes our children learn fear, blame and disconnection because we use shame to parent them. Rather than focusing on their behaviors, we attack who they are or belittle them. We threaten them with disconnection or ridicule them in front of others.

Sometimes, even if parents aren’t shaming their children, the children still experience fear, blame and disconnection simply because we haven’t taught them the skills of shame resilience. So, even if we’re not shaming them, we’ve left them very vulnerable to shame from teachers, coaches and peers.” (p. 284-285)

“I think it’s important that this book ends where it began – with connections. We are wired for connection. It’s in our biology. As infants, our need for connection is about survival. As we grow older, connection means thriving – emotionally, physically, spiritually and intellectually. Connection is critical because we all have the basic need to feel accepted and to believe that we belong and are valued for who we are. Although it might seem overly optimistic that we can create a culture of connection simply by making different choices, I think it is possible. Change doesn’t require heroics. Change begins whe we practice ordinary courage.” (p. 285)

Caderno de quotes de livros: The Graveyard Book

Acho que o Neil Gaiman estava empatado com o George R. R. Martin na minha lista de autores cujos livros eu mais li; mas com as leituras que tenho feito pro curso dele no MasterClass, o Neil está agora isolado no topo. Só de títulos listados aqui no caderno de quotes de livros, são cinco, contando com este, e ainda tem os que eu li antes de começar o blog.

Gostei muitão de “The Graveyard Book”. Ele me deixou com uma vibe de “poxa, eu queria ter escrito esse livro”. Talvez seja o meu preferido do Neil Gaiman. Fiquei apegada ao Silas, e confesso que dei uma choradinha quando a história estava chegando ao fim. Algumas aspas para ficar registrado:

“’You are ignorant, boy,’ said Miss Lupescu. ‘This is bad. And you are content to be ignorant, which is worse.’” (p. 71)

“’You’re alive, Bod. That means you have infinite potential. You can do anything, make anything, dream anything. If you change the world, the world will change. Potential. Once you’re dead, it’s gone. Over. You’ve made what you’ve made, dreamed your dream, written your name. You may be buried here, you may even walk. But that potential is finished.’”. (p. 179)

“Fear is contagious. You can catch it. Sometimes all it takes is for someone to say they’re scared for the fear to become real.” (p. 188)

“People want to forget the impossible. It makes their world safer.” (p. 289)

Caderno de quotes de livros: Coraline

Eu comprei o curso de storytelling do Neil Gaiman no MasterClass, e logo na primeira aula ele fala sobre “Coraline”, que eu ainda não tinha lido. Assim que o vídeo terminou, eu comprei no Kindle e li tudo em dois dias. A tecnologia é um negócio muito mágico, né?

Gostei bastante da história, como gosto de tudo que o Neil Gaiman faz. Achei o livro muito melhor do que o filme, que assisti logo depois da leitura. Fiquei pensando depois sobre livros X filmes (ou séries), e fiquei na dúvida se realmente o livro é sempre melhor, ou se o melhor é o que você consome primeiro. Enfim. Aspas para o caderno de quotes de livros:

“The cat yawned slowly, carefully, releaving a mouth and tongue of astounding pinkness. ‘Cats don’t have names,’ it said.
‘No?’ said Coraline.
‘No,’ said the cat. ‘Now, you people have names. That’s because you don’t know who you are. We know who we are, so we don’t need names.’” (p. 43)

“It is astonishing just how much of what we are can be tied to the beds we wake up in in the morning, and it is astonishing how fragile that can be.” (p. 81)

“Coraline shivered. She preferred the other mother to have a location: if she were nowhere, then she could be anywhere. And, after all, it is always easier to be afraid of something you cannot see.” (p. 113)

“The sky had never seemed so sky, the world had never seemed so world.” (p. 166)

Caderno de quotes de livros: פו הדוב הכי טוב בעולם

“פו הדוב הכי טוב בעולם” ou “Puff, o melhor urso do mundo”. Que treta foi ler esse livro. Ele é bem maior do que os outros dois em hebraico que eu postei aqui. E fiquei vários dias empacada, porque tava me sentindo tão desanimada nos estudos de hebraico :/ Mas quando cheguei na historinha do Bisonho, que é maravilhosa (eu tava rindo alto lendo livro do Ursinho Puff, minha gente), peguei o ritmo e terminei de ler rapidinho.

Um trecho traduzido para português – porque sou fina e poliglota – para o meu caderno de quotes de livros:

“Puff era um urso com um cérebro muito pequeno, mas ele sabia identificar quando um amigo precisava de ajuda.” (p. 77)

Caderno de quotes de livros: Born to Run

Comecei a ler “Born to Run”, do Christopher McDougall, e na terceira página já estava cansada do texto do autor. “Que textinho de reportagem de revista masculina”, pensei. Fui olhar na contracapa, e, bingo! O moço é editor contribuinte da “Men’s Health”, e entre outros veículos citados estão a “Esquire” e a “Men’s Journal”.

Demoreeei para engatar a leitura, mas fiquei feliz de ter me forçado a continuar, porque o livro fica muito interessante quando ele para de contar histórias sobre ele mesmo e começa a falar sobre ciência. A parte sobre humanos terem evoluído para correr foi especialmente interessante para mim, porque faz pouco tempo que li “Sapiens – A Brief History of Humankind” e o tema “evolução” ainda está fresquinho na cabeça. Também valeu pela parte em que ele argumenta que a Nike fez um grande desserviço ao mundo ao inventar os tênis de corrida modernos.

Duas passagens para o meu caderno de quotes de livros:

“’Every morning in Africa, a gazelle wakes up,’ Bannister said. ‘It knows it must outrun the fastest lion or it will be killed. Every morning in Africa, a lion wakes up. It knows it must run faster than the slowest gazelle, or it will starve. It doesn’t matter whether you’re a lion or a gazelle – when the sun comes up, you’d better be running.” (p. 13)

“Deny your nature, and it will erupt in some other, uglier way.” (p. 99)